[ +a dReaM, a mYtH, a BeliEf+ ]

[ This Girl ]

Name: CyNtHia, can call me cynZ
Birthday: 15 OcT 1987

[ My Loves ]

Drinks: plain water and lemon tea, barley.. aiya.. not picky, can drink can le la
Movies: ice age! haha.. constantine, shutter.. lots more
Songs: running-nodoubt and of coz, the song u r listenin to right now.
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[ My Detests ]

Drinks: rose drink
Movies: humm.. i dun hate movies, i love them!
Songs: nope, none in particular

[ The Memories ]

+February 2005+
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+April 2005+
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+June 2005+
+July 2005+
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+September 2005+
+October 2005+
+November 2005+
+December 2005+
+January 2006+
+February 2006+
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+November 2006+
+January 2007+
+February 2007+
+June 2007+
+February 2008+
+May 2008+
+October 2008+

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

degenerating mind__ turning freak

freaking pissed.//i simply dun understand y they dun understand
idiots.. moron.. spastic parental guiDAnce
the fact i dun go to work is coz of my eyes.. they r red.. swollen and the doc was pretty concern as well// she asked me if i wanna be referred to a specialist.. n u noe wat my pa rents asked me?

;y u didnt gO to work todae?' in ACCuSINg tone
'r u missing from work too much?'
'do u nOe u dun earn money when u work?"

what the hell.. am i suck a lazy bum they tink they bred? i used to work 7 daes a week.. for goodness sake..

im the last person they should point a acussing finger to!!

what happens when they get sick/?? i asked them if they r ok? wan me to acc them c a doc? n i ALWAYS ALWAYS gave them money to c doc..

a few hundred at a time.. coz i wan them to recover fast.. n wan they to spare no tots to monetary matters as i will take care of tt..
n this is wat i get from them?
doo i call my own parents INGRATe?
maybe leavin home wunt be the only time after all.. i wanna leave them.. i hate to soften when i c them.. to look at the age lines n feel so much love for them.. i hurt after all.. dun they noe tt?
to c mommy move ard so uncomfortably.. to c papa havin difficulty when his leg got prob..
i hate that.. i hate to feel so responsible.. yet what do i get?
was concern over my health impt to them at any point?

they dun rem how old i am.. they dunno when im sad, happy?
they dun even noe wat im thinkin abt/? they dun they dun they dun.. gosh..
im not complainin am i/?? they r my own parents after all.. y am i facing such conflictin feelingS?
it is difficult.. when i tink of it.. n i realise.. they care n concern tt i wish i haf are all a dream i made up/.. a dream tt nv came true..

im hurt.. im cryin with my swollen eye.. will i go blind?
y dun i care??

ppl ard me.. my frens all.. at least they care..
my sis cares/..
darren cares..

i am only.. half lucky..

damn my unfulfiled life,,..

+ [CyNz] remember agains + 4:50 AM