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Monday, June 19, 2006
i dun understand... y does he haf to go to camp? he realli dun care me le mahx?
y everytime i wanted to find him i cannot contact him. he nv knew how serious it is.. i feel distant from him. how many gf actually feel that way abt their bf. can u look him in the eye n not feel strange anymore. bink ur tears away when u feel this way. am i too demanding? do i wan a break in the relatioship? will it be better for me that i do away wit this thorn that is cuttin into my flesh? i love the rose.. but it is hurtin me.. so much.
dear i noe u did not hurt me intentionally, i noe it;s not ur fault. i noe that i am being unresonable. but y do i feel this way?
y the hurt didnt go away? im melting.. im going crazy soon. i tink i might lose the feeling i had for u.. y does this always happens when u r not beside me? i need to noe.. i need to clarify wit myself. i dun wanna hurt u.. dun wanna make u feel the hurt i feelin.. that y i brush the subject away. i say it doesnt matter.. but it does.. it does alot..
dear.. eventually i will leave u.. it may be now, or in the future.. and the max period is when u go ns. i cannot stand it'.. i need u by my side.. n if u r not, i fall.. dear, i lose everythin../ i cannot bear wit the thought of u being there onlu some times
i needed u to be there everytime, everydae of my life.
im disappointed.. im losing sleep.. im tearin up inside.. dun u noe that?
do u go to sleep everytime i said it;s okie, it's alright? cant u see the hurt in my eye? cant u detect the pain? y cant u hear? the rip that was so loud in my heart'"? the shattering of my glass heart? can u see? i died.. i died in front of u..
dear... i will try my best to luv u. but if the day comes when i haf to leave.. i dun wanna c u sad. i wan to pat me on the shoulder and wish me the best in my endless path. i dun wan u to forget me n the memories we share.. but i needed u to move on. we will nv noe wat may happen in the future. whu noes?
dear, n i needed u to noe. nv hurt a ger so much again.. c the fading of light n hope in her eyes.
+ [CyNz] remember agains + 9:18 PM
