[ This Girl ]
Name: CyNtHia, can call me cynZ
Birthday: 15 OcT 1987
[ My Loves ]
Drinks: plain water and lemon tea, barley.. aiya.. not picky, can drink can le la
Movies: ice age! haha.. constantine, shutter.. lots more
Songs: running-nodoubt and of coz, the song u r listenin to right now.
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[ My Detests ]
Drinks: rose drink
Movies: humm.. i dun hate movies, i love them!
Songs: nope, none in particular
[ The Memories ]
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Tuesday, September 27, 2005
1) It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is >more painful is to love someone and never to find the courage to let >that person know how you feel.>>
2) Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the >right one, so that when we finally meet the right person, we will >know how to be grateful for that gift.>>
3) Love is when you take away the feeling, the passion, and the >romance in a relationship--and to find out you still care for that >person.>>
4) A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to >you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and >you just have to let go.>>
5) When a door of happiness closes, another opens but often times we >look so long at the closed door that we don't see the ones, which >has been opened for us.>>
6) The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and >have the best conversation you ever had.>>
7) It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but >it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it >arrives.>>
8) Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll >love you back! Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow >in their heart, but if it doesn't be content it grew in yours.>>
9) There are things you'd love to hear that you would never hear >from the person whom you would like to hear it from, but don't be so >deaf as not to hear it from the one who says it from the heart.>>
10) Never say goodbye if you still want to try; never give up if you >still feel you can go on; never say you don't love a person anymore >if you can't let go.>>
11) Love comes to those who still: hope although they've been >disappointed, to those who still believe although they've been >betrayed, need to love those who still love although they've been >hurt before.>>
12) It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to >like someone and a day to love someone - but it takes a lifetime to >forget someone. >>
13) Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even >that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes >only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Hope you find the one >that makes you smile.>>
14) There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you >just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real! Hope >you dream of that special someone.>>
15) Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what >you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do >all the things you want to do.>>
16) May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials >to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to >make you happy and enough money to buy me gifts!!>>
17) Always put yourself in others' shoes. If you feel that it hurts >you, it probably hurts the person too.>>
18) A careless word may kndle strife; a cruel word may wreck a life; >a timely word may level stress; a loving word may heal and bless.>>
19) The beginning of love is to let those we love be just themselves >and not twist them with our own image -otherwise; we love only the >reflection of ourselves we find in them.>>
20) The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of >everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along >their way.>>
21) Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have >searched, and those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the >importance of people who have touched their lives.>>
22) Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a >tear.>>
23) The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, >you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures >and heartaches.>>
24) When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was >smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you're the one who is >smiling and everyone around you is crying...
+ [CyNz] remember agains + 8:53 PM
for those out there whu dunno.. im attached.. hahax.. surprising ritez.. most of the time i tell u guys not to get tied down.. thia time i defy my principle..
whu is he lehz? he is somebody tat relli matter alot to me and i tink he is realli too nice le.. actually i could sae tat i not v confident in this relationship n i did tink alot before relli takin up such a commitment. haha.. poly frenz out there.. tink u guys met him le.. but my sec fren... especially prem n the spp gang i tink u guys dunno ba..
well.. i started liking this person v long ago le.. haha.. tink it started out in a bad way when i first noe him.. he huh... always tok in hokkien den i dun understand.. initially when we first got acquainted, he sae he almost lose his temper at our grp which consist of tau pok, carol, kaan blah blah blah.. haha.. bet u guys can guess y? with tau pok ard, we are mad ppl// n of coz most of the time im crazy anyway.. this happens in Taman Negara..
i admit i did take notice of him coz he does resemble a person i came to noe in the past. but after the trip i also nv bother to relli get to noe him in person.. haha.. but tat is not the end ba.. dunno how come his fren give him my no n den we got msg each other lo.. but tat time still nv sae like him or anythin..
the expedition trip is where i started to haf feelings for him. for those good n close fren out there i probably got tell u all abt him. we were at the bar where this super xia jian guy start to sprout nonsense n he stood up fer me.. haha.. this is the time i took a doule take n start to look deeper into this person ba..
he ar.. can sae treat me v nice le.. i tink this is the first time i relli took an effort to enhance the relationship and i do care alot abt him.. last time my relationships most of the time is the guy take initiative to hong wo, to pamper n take care of me. i admit maybe my mentality is immature last time n i do tend to take things fer granted. n i can sae i nv take to relationship to be serious n long term. Gek San shud noe.. lol
this time though i feel different.. how to sae huh? i keep thinkin thing in a long run n i do tend to picture our future together.. maybe i relli wan to settle down le. however, me dear here im not sure if im relli the right one fer him. i trust tat he is loyal but i do noe that there r alot of other gers out there whu r better den me n make a better gf. he noe v little gers n sometimes i wonder how can he be so sure im the right person leh?
dear, if u happen to read this i wan to tell u tat i do care abt u alot and i juz wan u to be happy. if there is a ger out there whu is good to u, dun be cold to her because of me. look into her in a new perspective and c if she is good fer u. id i happen to noe the ger and i noe she is a nice person, i will back out.. dun worri i wun blame u or her because i wan u to be happy. u r a v nice person. being with u is like a dream come true.. but as u said, there is no fairy tale endin in real life and i am contand to have what i haf with u now. i dun tink im good enuff for u but i will try my best to love u n take care of u.
+ [CyNz] remember agains + 8:13 PM
Thursday, September 22, 2005
yest whole nite nv sleep.. got also a few hours onli.. haha.. call carol at 3 plus am to discuss multiple choice questions.. siaoz rite? kaan was so surprise when i replied his msg.. but todae i late fer sch sia.. jialat.. i left home early somemore,.. tink todae got accidents coz on the bus i hear the fire/ambulance siren(not sure which). it took me more den an hour to reach the klassroom lo.. v funni.. this girl alighted the same time as me was runnin.. i was walkin in big steps.. but we are at the same speed.. LOL.. she look so silly runnin like tat..
last night was a long nite.. went through the Wendy Shu notes v slowly.. den todae come out more on Adeline Koh.. arrghh.. the multiple choice i got compare wit ridzuan..n we both get the same ans.. haha.. if im not wrong i will get full mark for multiple choice.. cant sae the same for the long question though.. tink im going to fail the other question le.. the one on the potassium n the calcium one i got it wrong.. is 8 mark lo.. n the one on the ethylene one.. i simply repeat the question onli lo.. 15 mark lehz.. tink i will die...
long nv play hockey le.. hahax.. hand abit itchy,, wantes to but the hockey stick i saw last time.. waitin for exam over must ask kaan to acc me to go n buy.. humm... another top item on my list is the bag i saw at top shop tat time.. guess wat? it is purple colour de.. heeZ.. kinda expexted ritez?
yest jun min call me... was surprise as he dun call me in the afternoon de.. den i ask him y he call,, he sae is becoz of erm humm.. i tot wat... actually was his bdae the day before.. gosh.. i totally forgot abt it.. was so embarrassed.. haven even get him a bdae present yet lo.. shussh.. canot sae in the blog wat i wan to get him.. sekali he go n read.. more guilt lo... he keep sayin things to make me more guilty.. haha.. let me tok abit at this jun min.. i noe him since sec 3.. can sae thru adelyne or i tink is becoz we r klassmates.. initially find him v fan.. call me to tok cork but dun understand my jokes de.. lol.. but in the end he prove to be someone i care alot abt.. haha.. rem in the sec sch days he everytime give me morning call coz i am always late.. den always kena detention.. he treat ppl v nice lo.. i v short tempered de.. he still can tahan me.. there was once tat he cannot tahan no longer.. we had a fight n this time none of us try to make an effort to tok to each other.. haha.. tat was so long ago.. but after the fight make the friendship stronger ba..
next person i wanna tok abt is premma.. she is my bestfren.. thought we dun constantly c each other but we do noe that we care alot abt each other ba.. i rem in sec 1 when i always quarrel wit her.. den i walk away.. she taught me one thing though.. nv walk away from somebody n this lesson i learnt well.. too bad i didnt learn it sooner.. i should haf confront my bro n solve th prob i have wit him years ago. back to prema.. i tink she is v independent n strong.. there are times when i became frustrated wit her as she sometimes refuse to share her problem wit me.. i miss her alot.. nv seen her for ages..
humm.. tok abt my bro.. it was such a nice feelin to c him wear the bdae present me n sis bought for him that day.. he was wearin shoes n he caught my eye.. i was wonderin y he look so shuai tat dae.. lol.. he should wear white more.. i tink his other shirt all v dull.. though i attempt to tok to him n make an effort to involve him in family discussions.. he is always so distanced.. i regretted my childish action to break the friendship n care we had in the past.. those days are so nice *wistful i rem how close we were n i used to tink that he is my hero.. i admire him for whu he is n i tink he possess a good heart.. he will always be the guy from the past i noe.. whu dote on me so much.. hai.. better not continue.. later cry.. haha
u noe.. im not sure y but i had not manage to open my heart to anyone for a long time.. there will always be a barrier n guard.. cud it be because i realise the ppl i care abt can or will die one dae? i fear death like i nv fear b4.. i cannot accept the fact that one day.. ppl i care abt will leave me..
tat thought is scary..
im also not v sure of myself.. what if i die one day? the most regretful last thought will be i nv take care of my parents ba... n of coz.. i regret that i cannot n will not open my bro heart again after the first scarring.. hai.. life sux
+ [CyNz] remember agains + 8:53 PM
Sunday, September 11, 2005
feelin so horrible.. me.. defeated by microscopic flu bug!!
yest was horrible.. they make us play in the hot sun.. dehydration hor.. si bei jialat..i tink i saw dark spots dancing.. play halfway haf to go n drink water.. if they nv end the game early.. i tink i will die lo.. hockey is going to kill me one dae.. i noe it.. can feel it on my bones.. hahax,, ren lao le.. physically weak sia..
humm.. fu yu msg me yest.. i knew it was going to happen!! i mean.. he told me he like me .. like again after so long.. i ask him to give up b4 le.. i had even been rude to him.. aiya.. NS guys.. y do they all turn out like tat? like kena brain washed.. i nv reply him afterwards..
still waitin fer that special someone.. though there are no more excuse to c him.. i cud tell tat this is not the endin yet.. i juz feel happy tat someone cares n wishes to share the events with me.. for this im contented le.. i do hope things will not turn out bad.. i trusted him..
+ [CyNz] remember agains + 4:28 AM
Friday, September 02, 2005
it has been too long a while since i last wrote.. hope u guys are not bored reading the same thing again n again..
these days.. i had my thoughts sorted out.. i guess sometimes i do tend to regard unimportant things too seriously n oppositely so for imp things..
i had been neglectin my studies n i am willing to buck up
even though i am an amateur.. i will still attempt to finish the story i have once promise i would
hockey rawks.. missed teacher's day celebration.. hai..
will get back here soon.. dun worri :)
+ [CyNz] remember agains + 6:15 PM
