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Monday, June 27, 2005
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promises are meant to be broken.. the person whu says this ought to be shot!
however, i realised that alot of ppl break their promises.. promises made to a fren, family, and even in relationships.. they are simply not true..
i dun believe in 4eva.. memories last.. but not promises..
i rem my 1st ex, he promise me alot of things.. n i nv did the same thing to him.. coz i dun believe in myself.. i dun tink i can accomplish the things he wanted me to promise.. he seemed contended.. as in, he juz wants me to sae the words.. he dun even wan to noe if it is true..
i still rem my grandma.. she saes she will take care of me.. til the dae i got married.. she died
my frenz.. whu promised to be true.. are all lies..
i dun expect ppl to keep their promises to me.. but instead, i thank them.. for giving hope, strenght n courage to live n move on wit life.. though shadowed by a false hope, life is still simple n not ugly anymore..
smiles n cheerX
+ [CyNz] remember agains + 11:27 PM
wed was fun!! in Jurong bird park.. though abit tiring and frustrated.. these days the kids ah!!! so disrespectful one.. was i ever like tat?? i guess i was ba.. thankZ God i grew up!! haha.. ermz.. my grp are the naughtiest lo.. dunno why.. got even a bunch of girls call themselves MEI NU!! can u believe it!! they are super young lo.. abt 7 to 9 like tat.. most of them r primary one i tink.. some are relli small but sum look v mature..
so i skip OSRM and took a cad down to the birdpark.. me is frm grp one.. same grp as Hui Xian, Edison, Christina and Gerald.. four of us with 14 kids plus a kind auntie.. the teacher i tink.. poor her.. anyway, we went to c flamingo lo.. walk wit them quite fun.. was holding hands wit the small small ger.. i tink her name evelyne.. ermz.. shub be la..
we also went to c the bird show.. take the panarail blah blah blah.. they keep on bullyin me la.. so i change my approach to abit fierce.. haha.. i threaten them.. sae if they still continue like tat i will ignore them.. surprisingly, reverse pschology does work on kids.. i say if they dun wanna take part in activity dun take part lo.. juz stand aside.. not all took part la.. but at least the majority.. in the beginning they pull me inside the water.. was all wet.. but dried up quick enuff..
after the bird show went to c the penguains.. hahax,.. wo hao shi bai wor.. 1st time in my life c real penguain...ya.. i had nv went to bird park b4 wor..
den after tat went home with gerald, wei li, edison n bernard.. me n gerald split all the mentos sweet.. shh.. haha... we v funni.. we ps alex chua.. ran up the bus without him.. tink he is mad.. haha.. but too bad la.. wanna go home fast fast mahz..
thurs
thurs go to sch fer 2 hours.. den meet jacky.. he ask me to join his company, so i went up to take a look.. den saw emeline!! my neball senior whom i haf not seen fer 2 yrs!! yes.. she is workin there.. haha.. world is so small.. den they welcome me there lo.. all v warm n nice..(except the boss).. A guy name steve show me ard.. i tot he is 23 sia.. he turn out to be 19 yr old onli.. haha.. when he ask me how old i tink he is n i said 23.. he asked jacky whether he will die if he jump frm the 9th floor.. haha,.. funni guy.. a ger name liyana b dae on tat day also.. they invite me to join in the celebration.. i had choc cake wor!! haha.. i nc even wish the ger coz i dunno her
after tat i went to cityhall.. jun min ask me to go there de.. but jian chong n jianji they all was still at orchard eatin pastamania.. so i went to shop alone while they take cab to meet me.. when they reached, i c them suddenly i feel weird.. as in dunno wat to do dunno wat to sae.. every1 changed so much! so i was abit ermz.. keep to myself.. heng heng chris was nearby and he came to meet me lo.. so i ps them.. LOL.. abut guilty..
chris meet me n we went to marina long john to sit down n tok regardin the job reccomendation thingie.. coincidentally i saw jasper pass by.. haha.. i scare him by jumpin behing his back.. tink he is workin so i nv disturb him.. chris told me the company jacky recommend me to is NETWORK marketin.. he has been there fer 3 mths!! arrghh.. i feel like killin jacky,, kacky promise me it is not lo.. for i told him i hate all that..
the movie initial D was great!! jay chou v cool.. all the funni actors are inside.. the main ger character wasnt a disappotintment... not v pretty la.. more towards the cute side.. den at nite they went arcade.. again i sian diao.. keep to myself.. den at last jun min n jian chong sent me home.. haha.. wat a long day
+ [CyNz] remember agains + 11:00 PM
todae fell asleep in klass.. was so so tired.. dunno how am i going to tahan fer work later.. yest elaine msg me.. ask me to go to the yatch camp wit her, den desmond was tokin in msn to me at nite.. askin me to go.. he sae that guo jun n zhi han n him going.. i was relli tempted sia.. but too late!! i handed in my bookin fer work yesterdae!! arrghh.. den todae actually wanna ask them if the bookin is out, if not out den i will cancel n go la... but todae i called.. angela picked up.. she sae bookin is out le.. den i dun dare cancel lo... i scared if i did they will not b happy.. den next time wun gif me bookin le.. hai..msad man.. me so tempted to go n play...
den was tokin on msn with zhi han also.. he go online damn late sia.. probably go clubbin den come back,, anyway.. dunno y, he was tokin to me abt guang de.. haha.. tat dae i saw they all.. i purposely avoid guang de mahz.. den elaine saw n tell zhihan.. den he ask me lo.. i was surprise tat zhi han dun like guang de.. they hang out togther so much.. tat time cca fair c them together again.. zhi han still sae he pon klass juz to acc him lo.. haha.. i guess all of us haf the same thinkin ba..
stupid andrew.. ps us on tues.. he sae he cuming fer vball.. den in the end nv cum.. feel like killin him.. call him he also nv pick up.. den ps us le still wun like msg us to sae sorri de.. so i scold him abit la.. can understand.. he got bball competition n it is v tiring.. so i offfer to help him sign attendance next week lo..
samuel ar.. tok to him n jun min in msn lo.. jun min sick.. pity him lo.. he is so much more quieter n tired when i had dinner with him.. like v haggard like tat... samuel went home to study i tink.. but in the end crap wit me in msn abt the good old daes in sec sch la.. i miss sec sch so much!!
was surprise to c chris on msn.. he tot i ferget him le.. haha.. i was uppose to find job fer him.. but i not in contact wit my ex boss lehz.. like unspoken termination like tat,, den im always so busy too.. v difficult.. so guilty.. haha.. den tok n tok he ask me dinner wit him next week.. was tryin to fix a date den i realise! my next week sched ule is so damn packed.. how? cannot lo.. we agreed on wed.. but also not sure
i wan NDP tickets.. arrghh,.. tat stupid guo jun.. i promise to help him ask.. i got ask justin.. but he sae he will try.. even if can get, i feel weird abt meetin him.. hahax.. den i haf to ask maybe josiah they all.. c they in ns will get tickets anot
carol sick.. tink quite terrible.. she was almost hospitalised yesterdae.. at first tot is appendiscitis.. but in the end heng heng is onli germs la.. but i tink her condition quite serious.. so i dun dare to ask her abt the elaine yatch camp.. so ke lian.. she sae she cumin sch on mon.. i feel bad la.. feel like visitin her de den i realise this weekend my days are packed le.. no free hours..
todae got 3 hour break.. i fell asleep in goh klass again.. he teach super fast.. use 1 hour to do 2 hour lecture.. so i got more den 3 hrs, i went to get osrm results n meet denise lo.. we went to NP to meet sharon after tat.. had linch there.. the jap food v nice!! i asked sharon to changer her NP shirt wit my SP shirt.. hahax.. fun mahz like tat.. denise also tot of tat.. sharon sae she will ask fer another shirt fer her.. actually i wanted to crash sharon klass de.. but scared late fer lesson.. so i went first lo. denise got crash her klass la.. on the way to sp i saw jianji n his gf.. we said hi lo.. i tot him i came to look fer sharon.. den she shoot me sae y i nv look fer him.. i stared at him n walk off luffing.. haha.. long nv c this chicken guy le.. still the same.
later got biostat klass. i sure oink de.. hope he end early.. den can rush fer work.. christina pon klass!! i will be alone.. nvm.. still got pearly la..
+ [CyNz] remember agains + 11:20 PM
papa n mama went off to Genting on tues.. sis stayed in her hse on wed.. so i was all alone on wed.. but i survived!! hEEx
thurs was terrible.. zhu tou Edison.. he sae wanna paint the banner.. i dismissed lesson at 12.. so i sae okie lo.. go n paint.. penny told me bernard was suppose to go wit me to paint the banner de.. i call him he nv ans.. so i stone 1 hour in the library doing nuthin lo.. den nvm.. i wait til one le.. nuthin to do.. i meet amanda.. pass her the lab manual n eat lunch wit her.. not relli lunch fer me la.. i ate strawberry ice kacang frm fc 3.. haha.. i like fc 3. den we went up to the club room,., i was thinkin y not i start paintin.. den i can go off earloy n meet xinyi they all at 5 mahz,.. they wanna watch movie.. so i went to saa to get the key.. but i didnt get it as karen went fer lunch n the stupid office women dun allow us to take.. so i call edison.. he sae zhen long got key so i went to find zhen long lo.. den onli i found out edision was in the library with zhen long also.. nvm.. i got the key n i start paintin.. wit amanda.. den bernard came n penny came.. eugene came fer awhile n when we finished the whole banner,, it was 7 plus.. n edison haven cum yet.. i called him! he was at HOME!!! arrghh.. i didnt meet up with xinyi lo.. n bernard nv go fer his rock climbin.. so that we cud finish the poster.. u noe how shock i was?
den i went hm la.. without dinner.. over the paintin of the poster.. penny told me wat happen at the expedition camp.. i was so disappointed in some ppl.. n the club.. first of all.. i didnt noe there was so much to internal fightin n politics involved.. it relli sicken me to the core..
so i try to cook myself dinner at hm.. i scald my hand(OKOK.. i dunnoe how to cook).. when i finally sit down n eat, the noodle tasted funni, i checked the expiry date.. guess wat?? u shud noe!! arrghh... i went to slp without dinner.. with my scald hand.. feel so lonely n sad.. haha..
den before i slp i quickly call sam n min.. to acc me dinner todae.. so todae i met them lo.. :) we went Mos burger.. we saw mabel, cher siang n kun long.. haha.. den we eat lo.. sam n min was being crappy as usual.. min is feelin sick so he went off at 8.. sam n i sit there n tok til nine den we went home lo.. haha... v long nv meet them le mahz.. so feel happy.. sec sch klass mates r simply the best!!
tml i crashin NP.. gonna haf lunch wit sharon during the 3 hour break..:) dunno if denise cumin wit me..
+ [CyNz] remember agains + 8:27 AM
yesterdae i was workin.. as the usual.. haha.. but many interesting things happened.. for one thing.. jacky name is on the schedule but he did not turn up.. was wonderin wat happened to him.. v long nv c him le.. n his fren jimmy like dun care dun care like tat.. also bo bian.. perhaps his 28 days of leave has expire le..
when work tat time was hangin out wit ming yue raymond they all.. hahax,, they v funni ppl.. seems like ming yue like this ger n raymond ask me to help ming yue get her phone no..i almost did it lo.. except tat ming yue stop me.. gosh.. he dun even noe her name.. shi bai shi bai
raymond was wearing black jacket wor.. haha.. no pay increment promotion.. his duty is to catch us if we nv clean the susan n stuff.. but not true la.. fren fren mahz. he even help me clean susan.. hahax.. bu hao yi si.. heard tat sat ming yue was wearin black jacket.. raymond quittin le.. too bad.. no one to bully le.. heeZ
the bride is so so SO skinny!! n the bridegroom.. was.. ermZ.. to put it nicely, thrice her size.. hEEz.. ermz.. relli!! nv bluff u.. they were concludin tat either he must b rich, or with a veri veri good heart.. but i didnt get to c the groom.. was too busy entertainin my guest.. a bunch of uncles whu drinks alot.. but got help frm the guy(i dunno the name) from the table next to me.. n raymond help me get the dishes la.. so in the end.. quite an easy task.. onli serve drinks n portion.. the favor was CHOCs.. arrghh.. so tempted!! the guest eat the chocs in front of me.. feel like chokin them.
when i was going home, i met a bunch of crazies.. n i was utterly hopeless n foolish.. a bunch of people walkin towards me. i tot they were frm grand copthorne.. they said hi.. so i said hi also lo.. den one of the ask me where im going... i say im going home.. den suddenly, they start sayin things like, " my frens wan ur no".. gosh.. i was so freak out.. when i finally got it tat they are pickin up gers.. i turn n left la.. den they were shoutin n blah blah bah.. haha... i ran half the way to the bus stop.. hao ben worz..
had a terrible dream yest.. dreamt tat i was blind.. the feelin was horrible.. n i was scratchin my neck til raw n red.. didnt sleep much.. was awake by the time jun min give mornin call..
todae got meetin fer residential again.. was abit pissed off tat they haf it last min n they didnt inform me.. onli coincidentally i checked my mail during biostat klass tat i realised they sent email yest fer the meetin lo.. argghh.. wat do i expect..
dunno if amanda going dance todae anot.. if she going, den i go.. tml got volleyball n hockey.. wahZ.. xiong ar.. the fri n sat n sun i will be workin.. next wed jiahui sis havin her wedding banquet in grand copthorne.. i will not be able to work la.. coz got residential project mahz.. though it might be fun to work.. ask her to write me compliment letter.. muhaha..
+ [CyNz] remember agains + 12:35 AM
yesterdae i was workin.. as the usual.. haha.. but many interesting things happened.. for one thing.. jacky name is on the schedule but he did not turn up.. was wonderin wat happened to him.. v long nv c him le.. n his fren jimmy like dun care dun care like tat.. also bo bian.. perhaps his 28 days of leave has expire le..
when work tat time was hangin out wit ming yue raymond they all.. hahax,, they v funni ppl.. seems like ming yue like this ger n raymond ask me to help ming yue get her phone no..i almost did it lo.. except tat ming yue stop me.. gosh.. he dun even noe her name.. shi bai shi bai
raymond was wearing black jacket wor.. haha.. no pay increment promotion.. his duty is to catch us if we nv clean the susan n stuff.. but not true la.. fren fren mahz. he even help me clean susan.. hahax.. bu hao yi si.. heard tat sat ming yue was wearin black jacket.. raymond quittin le.. too bad.. no one to bully le.. heeZ
the bride is so so SO skinny!! n the bridegroom.. was.. ermZ.. to put it nicely, thrice her size.. hEEz.. ermz.. relli!! nv bluff u.. they were concludin tat either he must b rich, or with a veri veri good heart.. but i didnt get to c the groom.. was too busy entertainin my guest.. a bunch of uncles whu drinks alot.. but got help frm the guy(i dunno the name) from the table next to me.. n raymond help me get the dishes la.. so in the end.. quite an easy task.. onli serve drinks n portion.. the favor was CHOCs.. arrghh.. so tempted!! the guest eat the chocs in front of me.. feel like chokin them.
when i was going home, i met a bunch of crazies.. n i was utterly hopeless n foolish.. a bunch of people walkin towards me. i tot they were frm grand copthorne.. they said hi.. so i said hi also lo.. den one of the ask me where im going... i say im going home.. den suddenly, they start sayin things like, " my frens wan ur no".. gosh.. i was so freak out.. when i finally got it tat they are pickin up gers.. i turn n left la.. den they were shoutin n blah blah bah.. haha... i ran half the way to the bus stop.. hao ben worz..
had a terrible dream yest.. dreamt tat i was blind.. the feelin was horrible.. n i was scratchin my neck til raw n red.. didnt sleep much.. was awake by the time jun min give mornin call..
todae got meetin fer residential again.. was abit pissed off tat they haf it last min n they didnt inform me.. onli coincidentally i checked my mail during biostat klass tat i realised they sent email yest fer the meetin lo.. argghh.. wat do i expect..
dunno if amanda going dance todae anot.. if she going, den i go.. tml got volleyball n hockey.. wahZ.. xiong ar.. the fri n sat n sun i will be workin.. next wed jiahui sis havin her wedding banquet in grand copthorne.. i will not be able to work la.. coz got residential project mahz.. though it might be fun to work.. ask her to write me compliment letter.. muhaha..
+ [CyNz] remember agains + 12:35 AM
i relli dunno why n dun understand y.. i juz cannot stay at home.. one whole week.. n i haf onli come home relli late n off to sch v early.. todae is my onli rest day at home.. n den i juz cannot stand it.. had a tiff with my papa juz now.. was so angry n hurt.. den got online. the stupid n idiotic guang de haf to disturb me.. i dun even want to tolerate his nonsense todae.. i blocked him immediately.. before i blocked him.. i even told him.. i noe im gonna get it frm him on tues.. but seriously.. i dun care! todae was suppose to go out wit jiahui de.. but in the end she sae she dizzy.. den i dun feel like going to the interview alone.. so i rather not go out todae.. finish all my assignment first.. den tml go work.. abit suspicious tat if jia hui is relli sick.. juz talk to her yesterdae mahz.. she sounded okie.. i suspect is she dun wanna meet me so early tats y she sae she dizzy.. but also cannot judge wat.. cause she might be relli sick.. how would i noe.. last week was a wild.. i went fer hockey, meeting blah blah blah.. nv realli haf a good nite sleep as i was in sch til eight or nine plus.. but it was fun though.. i relli enjoy sports.. the feelin of testin the limit of ur endurance and feel the power in u.. nice! :) this week i had not relli kept in contact with my old frenz.. makin new frenz more.. hahax... sort of like a game like tat.. i intro frens to carol n she intro frens to me.. heez.. yest after hockey saw reagan in the sch taekwando.. he was suppose to pull some kind of stunt.. den the instructor v zi xiao.. ask me n carol not to go but stay n watch.. but i quickly ran away.. hahaz.. my new klassmates in klass are still a mystery to me.. it seemed like we are splitting.. at least tat is wat i feel.. i feel tat the new guys are pullin away our family members.. den we gers are left to fence fer ourselves.. but no matter wat.. i dun care much abt my klass this yr den last yr.. perhaps my social circle does not lie ther ba.. i felt tat i dun haf much happy moments in the klass den the ones i had wit tau pok n elmo they all.. haha. at least carol feel the same way as i do.. so at the v least.. i got carol to acc me to alot of things sia.. haha u noe huh..
+ [CyNz] remember agains + 10:46 PM
