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Monday, May 23, 2005
Todae went shoppin!! Ahaha.. bought a lot of stuff sia, spent abt 90 plus, bought a tube dress, (fer sis weddin) , n a tiny mini shirt.. lol.. dunno y I buy also.. went out wit fen v fun.. she V hyper de.. she also bought a skirt.. longer den mine la.. den got a cute free racer bag..
I nv eat lunch todae.. but still.. I EAT a lot.. muhaha.. I ate the shilin chicken, yami yougurt, ice cream, M and M’s dark choc n pan cake! Fat liaoz fat liaoz.. haha.. share wit fen de la.. haha.. so not so bad..
U noe.. I haf been thinking.. someone ask me sumthin todae tat I tot abt n I tink I can nv slp til I made a decision.. someone ask me stead todae.. he sae he wans to try out fer one dae.. he is my v good fren.. he got a lot of problems in his mind.. last time he used to like me.. n I didn’t noe it.. if I had known n had been wit him.. a lot of things tat happened presently wunt have happened.. being a fren.. I dunno if I can make his request.. I felt tat I can help him.. maybe leave a dae of good memory behind.. but would things still be the same if I accept? Though he sae it is onli fer a dae… I felt tat I cannot look at him in the same way as I do now if I agree.. wat should I do? I dun wanna lose him as a fren..he is a great guy.. relli.. n I dun wanna hurt him in any way.. coz I do care fer him n stuff.. I felt so indecisive.. argghh.. y must things be so complicated??
Taupok is a v good fren I find.. haha.. miss the ppl in camp around.. was tokin on msn n I suddenly sae I miss him.. he stunned… LOL.. coz when I woke up on sun.. I suddenly felt so lonely without all the ppl around me.. so used to them whisperin when I fall asleep.. disturbin me n gossipin abt me.. den I will wake up n sae, “iM not SLEEPIN”,.. lol.. was abt pissed off by elmo though.. I told taupok abt it.. he got explain the situation to me la.. got a better understandin le n I not so pissed off le.. actually he also make me realize a lot of things.. first time ppl come n sae me pretty worz.. lol.. I still tink im V ugly lo.. but he said sumthin to comfort me la.. he said if mel didn’t appear in his life b4, he might ask me out.. haha.. though I noe he is juz comfortin me, it felt good to my ears.. at least sumone had made the effort to comfort.. abit scared of yew ming, he remind more n more of guang de.. taupok sae it’s becoz he dunnoe hoe to tok to ger.. I not sure… during the camp huh.. he acted like guang de lo.. he dunnoe ask me wat, I sae I dunnoe.. den he action want to take the pole n whack me.. I juz sae “ u dare?”, he do it again.. I see le I pissed.. bo chup.. last time in taman negara he wasn’t like tat de.. he shy shy cute cute de.. den dunno y come the change.. me not so comfortable ba.. yesterdae zhi han got add me in msn.. todae tat stupid guang de add me.. den ask me guess whu he is.. so damn stupid lo.. I guessed becoz I noe onli him will make those down sword remarks.. den he msn email still so innocent.. I tot is a ger lo..
U noe huh.. I tink it is juz a passing crush.. I tink my feelings fer tat guy fade liaoz.. so damn fast lo.. to tink I was thinking of confessin.. haha.. I guess I tink too much le.. n he resemble a certain someone I noe in the past v much.. becoz of this ba..
I relli v v v tan sia.. yesterdae one guy from my work place come n ji siao me.. sae I go wrong function room.. shud not be Chinese weddin but the INDIAN weddin.. lol.. remind me of joffre,, he also super duper racist.. I rem the comment he make.. not relli v nice la hor.. den todae b4 I go out my sis ask me to be careful.. will attract a lot of Bangladesh.. hahaX..
I miss the outdoor so much.. wanted to buy a bikini n go sentosa play volleyball or canoeing.. it is juz so great to be doing sports.. but dunno find whu to go wit.. so far I got ask Sharon n sam.. dunno if they will come.. shub not be so soon ba..
I decide le.. I will not agree to the one dae couple thing.. things will change de.. I juz hope he understands.. im so sorri.. u noe huh.. when I tok to him juz now.. n he told me abt his troubles.. I almost cried.. heaven has been unfair to him.. I dun understand.. he dun haf to go thru all this..
Lavenda boss nv call me.. tink it is automatic resignation le.. haha.. also a good thing too.. I dun wanna work in a place I haf no passion in.. at least in banquet I like servin.. I like it when the guest comment on my service b4 they left.. n the ppl ther not bad.. junita, candy n hoe mun they all.. got take care of u de.. junita n hoe mun help me ask fer OT so tat I can earn more money n take free transport home.. I like them lo.. den wen xi live ard me… so we take same bus home de.. den still got tat Raymond.. stupid guy like to ji siao me.. but heng.. at least I noe tat he not interested in me.. coz I lie to him sae I got stead.. hahax.. sumtimes though necessary.. we gers haf to protect ourselves de..
Tml still haf to go sch.. not scared.. coz Kevin sae he give me morning call.. haha.. feel better.. den can check out my mail also.. den tml 3.30 got appointment.. die!
+ [CyNz] remember agains + 11:16 AM
