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Monday, May 30, 2005

tonitEZ

hee.. me in sch now.. lesson finish not long ago... was so sleepy.. slept in klass juz now.. hahaX.. but v excited.. my mind not in sch n lesson.. toniteZ me going out wit prem sia.. her bdae tml.. tink im gonna spent the beginning of her bdae wit her.. though recently i got not enuff sleep.. but wat to do? she is my beZfren mahz.. i bet she also cannot pay attention in klass rite now..

yesterdae bought converse shoes.. den on the way home i saw her in amk central.. so qiao rite?!! haha.. she told me abit abt y she has been missin fer so so long..these few daes huh.. i haf also been so busy.. perhaps it is my fault too tat i didnt mangage to contact her..

yesterdae penny msg me.. ask me to join VBALL fer sports elective.. heeZ.. i wanted to join tat lo.. jasper also joinin.. heard tat jasper shi lian le. so sad.. :( those two were so sweet.. so i called carol n ask her to join too.. n i asked taupok they all too.. so far.. tink i can crash the elective le.. tau pok, carol, guo jun, amanda join.. the considerin list is elmo, shaf, cher, zhihan and hui xian they all ba... all my frenZ :)

haha.. hao le.. i gtg home n rest le.. so tired..

+ [CyNz] remember agains + 11:10 PM

Saturday, May 28, 2005

best holidae :)

later im meetin my dearie mable to go buy some back to sch stuff.. namely my concession.. hahax.. being wit mabel is easy.. as though we did not lose contact before.. i guess there is such things as forever fren ba.. like me n prem.. nuthin changes.. though we meet lesser as we are both busy.. but we still do meet mahz.. n san n sivan n shan they all.. once a group.. always a group.. but some people i do miss alot .. like the frenz i had in 3 mths jc.. ren cui, joanna, gillian, kerui n shuan ba.. i nv meet them le.. they also veri busy wit sch stuff ba.. sharon they all i still got meet.. still in contact wit my primary sch fren shu fen, sujuan long nv meet le.. n whu huh.. still in contact wit jun min of coz.. ade i nv meet up le.. n contance mei xian they all lost contact..

yesterdae i was workin.. damn those tcc ppl.. all the first timer whu CANNOT understand instrustion.. even those whu worked there long cannot understand simple things n drag others wit them.. i was a first timer too.. but i ASKED.. i dun juz do stuff my way.. urgh.. n i cannot stand the way tat they tink they are superior.,.. okie la.. not all tcc people like tat.. but recently all im teamed up wit is like tat.. wat to do? todae i got work too.. alone somemore.. wei yee, suki n rui wen not wit me.. hai.. hope jacky is workin todae though.. :) he always liven up things..

thurs was at hui hui father's funeral.. i cannot imagine it.. he died so early.. due to cancer.. i feel so sad.. i c the mother so teary.. i felt so upset.. worst things is.. my papa the same age as hui hui papa.. i m scared.. i hope the day will nv come.. i hate n fear death.. y must it take away people/things we cherish.. i still rem the dae i lost my chinchinla..

den after the funeral went to tau pok hse.. didnt noe he was so rich.. lolx.. stayed up at nitex to wagtch A.I, notebook.. didnt manage to finish the notebook.. n didnt get to watch national treasure.. me was angry at kaanthan, dun like it when ppl bully me too muCh.. i noe ppl tink im nice to play wit.. den sometimes they go overboard,, cher was there.. she is super nice lo.. heard the sad story abt her ex though.. carol left fer work in the morning.. yew ming went sch,.. humm.. i wonder when sch starts le will we be able to spent time together anot.. V fun lo when im wit them.. taupok was makin everyone luffin like mad wit him TOO muCH information abt his gf.. he even offer to show the love letters his gf wrote fer him lo. kaoz.. i pity the ger.. wit a bf whu broadcast everythin.. as in EVERythin..

fri we left tau pok hse at 2 sumthin.. den i staraight away went bishan to meet up wit shan they all.. we ate in pastamania.. we had BANANA pizza.. haha.. gossippin n crackin jokes wit them.. we even took photos.. haha.. they neo prints was so nice.. too bad none of us has a workin scanner.. haha.. can was not int the pic though.. she left early.. we shopped til 9 plus n sivan n shan went home.. me n mabel did the same.. we walked to amk lo.. den went to arcade.. hahaX.. v long nv go there le.. i rem those days.. we can use a single credit to finish a game of dinosaur shootin game.. it was fun! bet no gers can shoot like us.. i even won guys wor... heeZ

sat i went NUH,.. i was so careless.. bro eye got prob n i did c his eyes were red few days ago.. juz tat i did not tink it was anythin serious.. he got an eye inflammation.. one eye super red.. n u noe wat.. he DROVE us to the NUH.. wit onli one eye in contacts.. feared fer my life sia.. muahah.. he got no spec sum more.. i do care fer him lo.. tats y i offer to go wit him in the mornin. sis also lo.;. but in the mornin.. he damn bad la.. ask us not to go.. sae he scared wait fer us late.. but we are already DRESSed.. so we insisted on going.. i mean.. when he has problems.. y not share it? is it good to keep it to himself onli?? y is he like tat.. we are a family.. we care fer him.. y must he shoulder all the responsibility.. i relli dunno how n wat to act or sae when im wit him.. it feels so strain.. yet i long to be close to him..

humm.. sch starts on mon le.. i better go prepare le.. bye fer now

+ [CyNz] remember agains + 7:46 PM

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

u nOe i cAnT sMile wIthOut u!

hey hey..

todae went to sch do CCGC duty.. kevin tell me yesterdae nite last min de.. heng heng i todae also v free.. so i go lo.. heh heh.. was quite fun la.. was crappin qit kevin n disturbin karen.. LOl.. karen beri fun to disturb de..

humm.. den i went fer doc appointment.. spent abt $300 plus plus.. abit heartpain.. all my work money disappear liaoz.. haha... my doc wanna go into private practice le.. he ask me to ;look fer him in paragon in the future.. he actually quite nice la.. i tink i might look fer him lo..

tml got work again.. these few days alot happened.. feelin troubled.. n i tink i am rather childish.. cannot like tat le.. sch start soon le..

+ [CyNz] remember agains + 4:10 AM

Monday, May 23, 2005

how to drown a fish!

Todae went shoppin!! Ahaha.. bought a lot of stuff sia, spent abt 90 plus, bought a tube dress, (fer sis weddin) , n a tiny mini shirt.. lol.. dunno y I buy also.. went out wit fen v fun.. she V hyper de.. she also bought a skirt.. longer den mine la.. den got a cute free racer bag..

I nv eat lunch todae.. but still.. I EAT a lot.. muhaha.. I ate the shilin chicken, yami yougurt, ice cream, M and M’s dark choc n pan cake! Fat liaoz fat liaoz.. haha.. share wit fen de la.. haha.. so not so bad..

U noe.. I haf been thinking.. someone ask me sumthin todae tat I tot abt n I tink I can nv slp til I made a decision.. someone ask me stead todae.. he sae he wans to try out fer one dae.. he is my v good fren.. he got a lot of problems in his mind.. last time he used to like me.. n I didn’t noe it.. if I had known n had been wit him.. a lot of things tat happened presently wunt have happened.. being a fren.. I dunno if I can make his request.. I felt tat I can help him.. maybe leave a dae of good memory behind.. but would things still be the same if I accept? Though he sae it is onli fer a dae… I felt tat I cannot look at him in the same way as I do now if I agree.. wat should I do? I dun wanna lose him as a fren..he is a great guy.. relli.. n I dun wanna hurt him in any way.. coz I do care fer him n stuff.. I felt so indecisive.. argghh.. y must things be so complicated??

Taupok is a v good fren I find.. haha.. miss the ppl in camp around.. was tokin on msn n I suddenly sae I miss him.. he stunned… LOL.. coz when I woke up on sun.. I suddenly felt so lonely without all the ppl around me.. so used to them whisperin when I fall asleep.. disturbin me n gossipin abt me.. den I will wake up n sae, “iM not SLEEPIN”,.. lol.. was abt pissed off by elmo though.. I told taupok abt it.. he got explain the situation to me la.. got a better understandin le n I not so pissed off le.. actually he also make me realize a lot of things.. first time ppl come n sae me pretty worz.. lol.. I still tink im V ugly lo.. but he said sumthin to comfort me la.. he said if mel didn’t appear in his life b4, he might ask me out.. haha.. though I noe he is juz comfortin me, it felt good to my ears.. at least sumone had made the effort to comfort.. abit scared of yew ming, he remind more n more of guang de.. taupok sae it’s becoz he dunnoe hoe to tok to ger.. I not sure… during the camp huh.. he acted like guang de lo.. he dunnoe ask me wat, I sae I dunnoe.. den he action want to take the pole n whack me.. I juz sae “ u dare?”, he do it again.. I see le I pissed.. bo chup.. last time in taman negara he wasn’t like tat de.. he shy shy cute cute de.. den dunno y come the change.. me not so comfortable ba.. yesterdae zhi han got add me in msn.. todae tat stupid guang de add me.. den ask me guess whu he is.. so damn stupid lo.. I guessed becoz I noe onli him will make those down sword remarks.. den he msn email still so innocent.. I tot is a ger lo..

U noe huh.. I tink it is juz a passing crush.. I tink my feelings fer tat guy fade liaoz.. so damn fast lo.. to tink I was thinking of confessin.. haha.. I guess I tink too much le.. n he resemble a certain someone I noe in the past v much.. becoz of this ba..

I relli v v v tan sia.. yesterdae one guy from my work place come n ji siao me.. sae I go wrong function room.. shud not be Chinese weddin but the INDIAN weddin.. lol.. remind me of joffre,, he also super duper racist.. I rem the comment he make.. not relli v nice la hor.. den todae b4 I go out my sis ask me to be careful.. will attract a lot of Bangladesh.. hahaX..

I miss the outdoor so much.. wanted to buy a bikini n go sentosa play volleyball or canoeing.. it is juz so great to be doing sports.. but dunno find whu to go wit.. so far I got ask Sharon n sam.. dunno if they will come.. shub not be so soon ba..

I decide le.. I will not agree to the one dae couple thing.. things will change de.. I juz hope he understands.. im so sorri.. u noe huh.. when I tok to him juz now.. n he told me abt his troubles.. I almost cried.. heaven has been unfair to him.. I dun understand.. he dun haf to go thru all this..

Lavenda boss nv call me.. tink it is automatic resignation le.. haha.. also a good thing too.. I dun wanna work in a place I haf no passion in.. at least in banquet I like servin.. I like it when the guest comment on my service b4 they left.. n the ppl ther not bad.. junita, candy n hoe mun they all.. got take care of u de.. junita n hoe mun help me ask fer OT so tat I can earn more money n take free transport home.. I like them lo.. den wen xi live ard me… so we take same bus home de.. den still got tat Raymond.. stupid guy like to ji siao me.. but heng.. at least I noe tat he not interested in me.. coz I lie to him sae I got stead.. hahax.. sumtimes though necessary.. we gers haf to protect ourselves de..
Tml still haf to go sch.. not scared.. coz Kevin sae he give me morning call.. haha.. feel better.. den can check out my mail also.. den tml 3.30 got appointment.. die!

+ [CyNz] remember agains + 11:16 AM

Saturday, May 21, 2005

cya expedition camp

oMg!! it was the most slackeesst yet shagZ camp ever!! :)

let see.. whu do we haf in the camp
full time camper: me, elaine, amanda, hui mei, guo jun, tau pok, yew ming, patricia
three quarter time camper: zhihan, desmond, lionel, geoffrey
half time camper: carol, elmo,
barely there member: guan de

let c., wat do we do? we took a coach to the farm area.. n we trek abit, n we trek some more.. den we long bang.. den we trek.. den we long bang again.. lol.. we are suppose to walk back to sp de.. in the end.. hai..
first nitez we slept in lt11, i was sick during the first nitez.. den air con v cold sia.. didnt sleep much.. elmo fell down doing push up n had a deep cut,he was luffin n bleedin at the same time.. but tat didnt freak me out as much as tau pok was still EATIN when elmo is bleedin.. lol

2nd day abit tough ar.. we trek frm dover to doby gaut.. visit some museum n the civil defence place.. we pitch tent but rain. the tent like wan to fall off.. lol.. den we unpitched.. tmd!! was so cold n wet n east coast park. in the end we BOOKED chalet! muhaha/.. $50 fer one nite.. still okok la.. haha.. at nite me, amanda, guo jun, zhi han n guan de go drink at the pub there.. amanda drink v little.. i drank 2 cups den my facde red le... den zhi han ask us play dunno wat game... turn round n round de,.. gosh.. i was still sick on tat dae lo.. but quite fun la i guess..

3rd dae free n easy... we went cycling, went inside water.. played pool... n alot lo.. at nite super siong! trek all the way frm east coast to sentosa!! arrghh.. i tink my back pack stumped my growth 4eva.. n hor.. so so tired lo.. jialat..
reached sentosa play volley ball!! haha.. n sleep there too.. fun! den weather not good.. so we went home.. me tanned alot sia..

reflection of camp:
i felt tat the people going is not fully committed enuff, they like come as u go, n leave as they pls.. it is not a v nice thing n it disrupt the camp activities abit la.. i serioulsy felt tat durin taman negara we bond more n things werent so confusing.. i hope fer a camp tat actually does meet the objectives abt camping.. i juz dun feel so comfortable with people tat are not as enthusiastic wit the journey.truly, i missed PSL camp

this camp haf the benefits too.. i rem the fun part where we went cycling n also, video takin and volley ball.. i tink i fell in love wit sentosa where so many events are always takin place n lotsa fun n happenin stuff there.. whhoowhee.. but i simply dunno the people tat do share the passion as i do n i cant be doing grp activities alone.

i realise somethin i had nv known or see before durin this camp.. it was perhap the magic of the moment.. or i had juz imagined everythin, yet i came to one conclusion, which troubles me alot.

+ [CyNz] remember agains + 5:54 AM

Sunday, May 15, 2005

the facts of life

yesterday had a veri interesting conversation wit andy.. haha.. i crazy de.. go out at 12 at nite.. den tok til 1 somethin.. but it was well worth it.. was tokin to him abt somethin called the definition of living in human terms.. his belief is more spiritual whereas mine was more scientific in a sense.. haha.. i am still wonderin though.. perhap one dae i will find the answer to all the questions..

humm.. was workin recently.. i felt more alive, more independent.. i felt tat i could survive on my own n withstand hardship.. today also got work.. im pleased wit the money i haf earned.. though i noe where it would vanish in a sec.. haha

yew ming contacted me ... den abit weird.. coz he keep askin my question.. n stuff.. abit the irritating ar.. den he asked me out yesterdae.. wanted to watch movie de.. i was tired lo.. but i comply on the condition if he can get more ppl.. in the end he could not.. den i refuse lo.. but he was again so persistant.. still ask me out cycle some more!! gosh, here's one guys whu could not take no fer an ans.. i didnt go la.. was oinkin like a pig the whole dae..

yesterdae channel 5 got deep blue sea! was watchin wit my mom n dad.. like of like the feelin.. so cozy.. everyone juz seat n watch movie together like a real family should.. after all tat happened.. i do cherish n indulge in these simple pleasure.. kinda miss sista though.. everytime she called papa hog the phone.. arrghh..

i chose my gems alreadi wor.. guess wat? effective negotiation skills! i finally got the course i wanted.. hope i can do well.. todae my dear ger sharon bdae.. tml my dearie mabel bdae.. haha..schedule abit packed.. tml was suppose to watch movie wit carol "kingdom of heaven", but hor, mabel wan to go out.. i got residential meetin in sch at 12.. n i still got work at nite!! haha.. how can? either i split myself of i clone myself.. so which option shud i go to? humm.. lol

timetable not out yet.. but i noe my course le.. me going into biotech!yay.. haha.. i am glad indeed..

hey, any ex 408 ppl viewin my blog tag me k? i want to set a date fer a klass gathering.. maybe around dec this year.. jackson sae he plan.. lol.. so i juz need to inform everyone.. sam they all going ns next year le.. if still no gatherin means no more chance in the future le..

:) saw raymond at work yesterdae.. haha.. he is the one whu trick me to take a bus i shouldnt n end up in some unknown area! haha.. but in the end, he got get off the bus n offered to pay fer my cab la.. quite chivalrous i guess.. but it was funni how we get acquaintance though.. den he keep teasin me la... first time i meet him den believe him.. zhen ben!

in work i dun like this manager call neil! he is a skinny assed pig! scolds me fer the stupidest thing.. scold nvm, tell my colleagues fer wat?! makin butt of the joke.. idiot.. next time im standin up fer m,yself.. cannot always kena bully!

todae im workin again.. haha.. dunnoe wen they all workin anot.. sat got candy pei wo.. but todae she not workin.. haix.. she v nice lo.. though she keep on smokin.. but at least i learn alot from her!!

hao le la.. i will be in schtml.. maybe i will get some update fer the farewell.. was surprise terence n thiam hock return testimonial fer me.. i wrote theirs first coz they leavin le mahz.. haha..

will be at expedition camp again frm tml onwards.. muhaha.. lookin forward..

+ [CyNz] remember agains + 10:17 PM

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

my "training" expedition

whu the hell invented heels?!! n whu suggested WOMEN shud wear them.. gosh! MEN shud wear them.. at least fer a dae.. c how they tahan...

anyway.. was crazy today.. walked all the way frm bugis to orchard wit amanda todae.. lol.. did shoppin in bugis, suntec, heeren n taka.. nv BUY a single thing.. LOL.. i got control hor.. haha.. no la.. actually yesterdae bought alot of stuff wit prem.. so todae must control.. den mother dae cumin le.. was thinkin of a joint present wit sis to buy mom intense.. abit ex la.. but i dun mind.. but the thing is.. scarly she eat le still wan how?? i will go broke de!! lol.. humm. consider first.

humm.. saw zhi han in bugis todae.. haha.. was surprise he called me by my name.. not banana.. lol.. at least ppl knoe my name.. he asked me abt the expedition.. he going i tink.. humm.. alot of things not yet confirmed.. first of all kaathan haven even sent me the idemnity form.. n i heard frm amanda haf to haf in by this fri.. arrghh

tml result out le!! haha... was so scared.. i flunkin my gems i tink.. jialat lo.. coz i overslept on one of the test.. how stupid can this be..

humm.. this mornin acc my sis go clinic.. she sick lo.. suspected dengue.. den she went thru blood test.. todae collect results... in the end no la.. was not dengue.. whee..
went to this jap resturant named wasabi to eat.. V good sia!! haha.. den on the way home take 159 saw WEE LEONG!! haha.. he so blurZ.. i call him he nv hear.. was too busy lookin fer a seat i tink.. den i call his hp lo.. ask him turn ard.. v bo liao hor.. was surprise he came to seat near me juz to tok.. guess we all grow up le.. was tokin abt the good old daes in sch.. the cold jOkes.. lol.. ermz.. tink he said teck chee bdae cumin soon.. sam, eug n teck chee all in pax A.. haha.. even zhi wei wor.. all v fit ppl.. wee leong sae my sis onli 20 yrs old!! haha.. sis so happy.. she 26 liaoz lo.. still looked young worz

oh ya.. i painted my finger nails BLACK.. haha.. i finally gave in to tat.. fer fun lo.. c how ppl react.. my sis got freak out.. haha.. but when i was shoppin todae hor.. the shop assistance came n sae v nice lehz.. LOL.. dunnoe is lying anot.. mum juz noticed my nails.. she naggin le.. muhaha

ermz.. nuthin much happened.. my sis going to india soon le.. dunno her health can tahan mahz..
kevin super weird! he mag late last nite.. den i was oinkin le... so nv reply.. this mornin i ask him y msg me.. he sae he wan to to watch super sundae coz of romantic love story!! hao siao.. den i suan him sae he watch alone sure lonely.. he reply " i watch until so excited u noe".. heehee.. heng he nv haf my blog add.. if he c sure kill me.. muhaha

grace msge me todae.. dear ger.. miss her so much.. she ask me go cyclin on sat.. humm.. must c first..

todae LEON called me.. so happi.. he quite a nice guy.. sae he will look fer jobs fer me.. though til now not successfull.. still glad that even thougn im slackin.. someone is tryin to look fer job fer me.. muhaha

ermz.. justin msg me yesterdae.. weird weird de also.. i told him i dun believe in love.. den he said somethin abt feelings can be nurtured.. hai.. dunno la

was out wit prem yesterdae.. she is beautiful.. woohoo.. n we bought alot of stuff.. i bought tee shirt, neclaces, hair accessories n black nail polish.. i convinced to put on black nail polish.. c! im good wit ppl..

todae convince guo jun to go expedition camp.. haha.. was so easy! less den 10 mins,.. but scared he bluff me..

+ [CyNz] remember agains + 7:31 AM

Sunday, May 01, 2005

top of the peak.. was so tired.. but happy n satisfied

+ [CyNz] remember agains + 10:59 PM

haha.. this is the one where i wanna beat tau pok wit my slipper.. haha.. cute

+ [CyNz] remember agains + 10:57 PM

elaine, me, shaf, cher and carol!! haha.. taman negara rawkZ

+ [CyNz] remember agains + 10:53 PM

my tdc members!!

+ [CyNz] remember agains + 10:52 PM

beautiful sun rise

+ [CyNz] remember agains + 10:49 PM

this is the official farewell dinner fer mrs ong..

+ [CyNz] remember agains + 10:46 PM

ahh.. a not well taken grp photo.. thx to jasper huh

+ [CyNz] remember agains + 10:45 PM

wish i were the one standin there

+ [CyNz] remember agains + 10:44 PM

y does fish swims?

obviously.. i haf run out of titles.. okie la.. dun luff la.. at least im creative!! lol..

tml mama going fer hospital checkup.. i may not be ablt to acc her.. got work lehz.. but boss haven call me yet..

yesterdae watch horror show wit papa.. so fun.. haha.. not scared.. coz it is a stupid show.. ahh.. got ice age too!! haha.. yesterdae i watch tv all dae sia..

todae went to buy chocs.. hoho. me gettin fat. haha.. actualy papa also quite fun to be wit.. i keep pullin him to run home wit me.. juz fer fun.. haha.. funni guy..

yesterdae justin called.. humm.. sounded weird.. he call den nv sae anythin de.. suan le.. i also dun wanna fan him to sae..

samuel called a few days b4.. i keep sayin funni things to him.. tink he freak out le.. muahaha.. i tot him tat his tiao jian bu chuo.. y not look further.. i mean.. he going NS soon liaoz lo.. if nv find gf.. scarly too late le how?? LOL..

true la... i tink abt others.. but i dun wan a bf fer myself ba.. too complicated le.. somemore still hurt by guys.. i tink im gonna make good my promise.. dun wan hubby le..

fuyu nv cum fan me le.. thankz God.. there are times i wish i can meet him up.. not to tok nicely but to STRANGLE him.. he v fan de lo.. kaoz.. i cannot believe there are such ppl in this world.. si bei bo liaoz!

rui wen help me book fer next week le.. these daes alot of ppl gettin married in grand copthorne waterfront.. first is jia hui sis.. den my sis fren.. den my sis hunny fren.. haha.. i abit paiseh to workk.. scarly meet ppl i noe.. den still haf to serve them.. :/

humm.. sheng ask me go clubbin.. lol.. not relli clubbin la.. is dancin lo.. coz his teacher givin lesson in the club.. ermz.. i tink the most i go ther dance lo.. shud not be any trouble de la.. hor? provided sheng dun drink n sent me home.. otherwise ah.. i will haf to ask fer help le.. so far me the onli ger lo.. somemore he ask me to go regularly.. ermz.. relli must consider.. maybe i go first time test out water ba...

receive the pixs fer taman negara.. ahaha.. so funni de.. there was one pix i took my slipper pretendin to beat tau pok wit it.. still waitin fer elaine to sent me the rest.. yesterdae ask ah ma to sent me expedition pix.. she nc sent.. :(

another dae shall passed.. my holidaes gettin shorter le...

+ [CyNz] remember agains + 10:02 PM