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Friday, March 04, 2005
y am i so stupid??
y am i so blur?
y am i so bitter?
i shouldnt be.. i mustnt and a cant!!
rite??? WRONG
i kinda dun relli noe how to describe the feeling.. of being left alone when all u wan is a hug, some form of affection, some care and concern.. i dun quite understand y everyone gets the idea tat leavin time to cool down, to cry or to reflect is a good idea.. i seriously dunno
i juz want someone to understand me, to noe the tears behind my smiles, to look deep into my emotions and to care.. perhap i asked for too much.. am i??
well.. too much of the bad stuff.. lets talk abt the GOOd ones instead! humm.. i met up wit my primary sch bestfriend yesterdae! she hor.. n her frens huh.. trick me lo.. haha.. her hp low batt mahz, she ask her fren to call me n the fren impersonate her.. call me AH XUAN some more.. no one calls me tat lo.. except fer fen.. den hor... i so stupid, somemore tok to her as if she is fen.. lol.. i tink fen matures alot n i tink she is the BEST ger fren i ever had. she so nice and innocent tat all u wan is to protect her! n in a way she is so vulnerable, she cannot sae no to anyone.. if u force her, she will burst into tears. i rem the good old times in sch.. where we used to write letters everydae to each other. so SWEEt rite? den she will knit somethin exqusiten delicate fer mE! i would be so over the moon.. hahax.. if im a guy huh, i will die die go after her!
i miss 915!! i miss the sr days where we skip lesson.. kena catch for late coming and hair dye colour.. n bluffing the teacher tat we nv bring tutorials.. hahaz.. n the ultimate, NAPPing in lectures.. oh.. let me introdue this 915 ppl.. the history or rather pioneers of this gang of fren started with 4 ppl, me, ren cui, joanna n gillian.. haha.. me the youngest in there la.. den we recuited a "jie MEI' , turn out to be a guy though named shawn,.. haha.. y i suddenly tok abt them.. is becoz i MIss them and also, they asked me out todae, shawn treat.. but too bad, i was involve in duty at jae todae..
anyway, tats all fer todae.. im going fer an interview tml, haf to find $$ to support myself,.. sch fees cumin le.. wish me luck!
+ [CyNz] remember agains + 6:19 AM
