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Thursday, March 31, 2005

hao wu liaox ahz..

hao men ahz.. me in sch now.. pia-ing my math.. so far not much progress.. onli on to the third paper.. but not bad wor.. at least i've started!! ahah..

many ppl complain i nv update blog liaox.. now i try to prove them wrong muHaha.. but forgive me la.. i got examz ard the corner lo..

humm.. yeaterdae went downstair to tok to andy.. we kinda in a bad state lo.. coz i tink nuthin is going right in our way..

humm.. tat fuyu contact me again.. arrghh.. i told him im not interested le.. but he still sae he wanna wait.. crazy la.. he v superficial lo.. dun even noe me sae he like me.. this kind of ppl huh.. shub be shot sia!!

humm.. yesterdae i bad mood lo.. den i tink im kinda rude to justion.. if u r reading, i apologose wor.. haha..

humm... tml go back DEYI! yay! haha.. going wit san, shan n sivan.. mabel dunno got go anot.. need to buy kexin present also.. not bad sia.. she 21 le.. haha.. feel so excited fer me.. 21 can do alot of things already lo!:)

ermz.. den last sat and sun was workin lo.. sat was so horrible.. kena bullied by the china ppl and the aunties.. i felt like quittin right den.. but in the end nv la.. dun worri.. but sundae was heaven.. i get paid fer juz standin there.. dun even haf a table lo..

humm.. sis going to take outdoor pic tml!! so excited fer her!! she must haf look v v v pretty! mom is going hospital tml.. papa will acc her i tink.. humm.. i tink i shub go too.. but i promise san they all i go sch le.. dunnoe la.. not decided yet!!

my stupid gems teacher.. i call him so many times lo.. even left a msg in his voice mail.. he dunno how to call back de ah.. arrghh.. i wan to take my gems test.. otherwise fail module le lar!!

hao le.. i need to go off le.. dunno when will write again.. but dun worri.. i will still write in my kbusiness planner.. lolx

+ [CyNz] remember agains + 12:32 AM

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

im freed

haha... me going to TAMAN NEGARAwith carol, dunnoe pearly going anot.. haha.. so so glad.. tml i will register..

humm.. im glad! these days kinda turn out fer the better fer me.. humm.. glad he found someone he relli like and also, glad tat im studying now, glad tat i found a job now, glad tat my sec sch frenz are going out wit me on SAT! haha.. i wun mention whu though.. coz i tink i told too many ppl abt my blog le.. scarly they read sia.. lol
me now in the sch lirary.. nuthin better to do.. actually wanted to do idea de.. but hor.. seems like my grp cannot agree on a model.. so ferget it lo.. wahha

thia sat i start work wor! so excited.. boss called me last nite ask me to work.. he hor.. relli like pushin me lo.. if he wans me to work.. he HAS to tell me in advance lo.. i cannot go on cancellin my appointment because of him..

hao le.. i go do my cell bio le.. kbyeZ fer now! cheerX

+ [CyNz] remember agains + 9:28 PM

Saturday, March 05, 2005

my rest dae!

wahz.. todae slept til 2pm.. lol.. papa tryin to get me out of bed frm morning.. finished sidney sheldon! great writer.. kept me so captivated fer 3 daes.. humm.. abit lazy todae.. was lisenin to my blog song over n over again!

todae is special, i woke up feelin well rested! lol.. of coz, slept fer 10 hours. todae i got time to spent, which is a rare phenomenon.. gotta rem to collect my contact lens later in the evening, or maybe, in the afternoon.

i tink my face crackin le.. shub not go out in the sun so often.. was thinkin of going joggin todae.. humm.. maybe later..

next week i tink i haf alot of free time too! coz i will not be havin any practical on fri n thursdae.. muhaha.. can date my frenz out fer lunch le! humm.. need to have my sch fees settled.. dunno whether the interview i went yesterdae is successful, they require me to bun up hair, eww!

hahaz, must remind jia xing or sam to get my 'spirited away' vcd ready.. lookin so so forward to watchin it..

u noe wat, i kinda miss the times i work in mac, hahaz.. wat was i thinkin.. but it is not bad mahz, having a 2nd home so near to u.. i start to feel the strain of my age recently, i tink i lao le, how?

there are still so much things i haven do yet, yet to experience my youth.ermz, juz kiddin la..

i feel like going to malaysia in my hols, but not wit my family, was thinkin of my frens instead.. but in the end, whu will actually go? humm, going is not a prob i tink, its organisin ba.. i wan to go taman negara! a place full of outdoor sports n nature.. how do u feel abt wakin up in the morning to watch the sun rise up upon the wide expanse of mountains? where the breeze carries a hint of forest and damp fog.. humm..love the place, and of coz, the 5 thousand yr old cave where satactite n salactite grew, the ancient of the rocks and stones and the deep respect fer the longetivity of the Gods.. everythin there sort of overpower u, u feel so insignificant and primitive, the potential of danger excites u and thebrought fear.tat is the nature part, as for the sport, u get to do rapid shootin and hikin, n of coz, bamboo raftin and lots more. u hike to the top of the mountain, drink frm the stream there which is deeply enriched wit minerals, the freshness and crisp feelin the the air u breath in. humm, if i carry on, i tink i make a good writer fer the catalogue of taman negara, lolx.. btw, if anyone happened to read my blog and happen to be a nature lover n happened to be deeply mesmerised by the propect of going to the place, tag me k? regardless of whu u r..

+ [CyNz] remember agains + 11:21 PM

hitch!

hey guess whu i went out wit todae?! hahax.. suprisingly samuel.. lolx.. finally pass him his present le.. hope he like it lo.. haha
we went to watch hitch todae worz.. some more sit 1st row! neck super suan lo.. humm..hitch is not bad, v funni lo.. but the thing huh, too draggy la.. aiya, should haf watch howl's moving castle instead..
humm, saw alot of ppl todae sia.. gary they all, maryann xiao en chu lan they all. gary hair, v er xin lehz.. haha, even samuel dun wanna c them, so we nv play pool lo.. we walk out of the place after tat.. ya lo, todae everywhere super crowded!

in the ead, felt tat sam n me feel the same way abt frenz.. coz all disperse liaox.. aiya.. miss the good old sch daes.. everyone grown up le i guess.. n tat is not neccessary a good thing...

humm, went fer a job interview todae, met up wit rui wen!
haha, she so nice, accompany me and wait fer me, we haf lunch, it was awesome, talk n talk n talk tat she late fer meetin her frenz.. haha.. feel paisae..

boss actually ask me to work todae de! i promise him i will.. coz i yesterdae nv go also,.. so jialat, wonderin when he firing me.

tml will be a dae of rest, and projects.. i promise myself to study hard.. exams coming le! kinda tired, wan to slp but i wan to watch the ghost movie lehz.. lol.. torturin myself, yesterdae slept at 4 like tat lo.. was rushin proposal n heng heng chris help me edit sia.. lol.. we somemore converse in cantones in msn wor! nat first not so pro, now ermz.. okie la..

i had a pleasant dae
oh ya! tml must go n c get the student pay in slip... must pay b4 9th of march!

+ [CyNz] remember agains + 8:10 AM

Friday, March 04, 2005

perhaps, things are no longer the same anymore

y am i so stupid??
y am i so blur?
y am i so bitter?
i shouldnt be.. i mustnt and a cant!!
rite??? WRONG

i kinda dun relli noe how to describe the feeling.. of being left alone when all u wan is a hug, some form of affection, some care and concern.. i dun quite understand y everyone gets the idea tat leavin time to cool down, to cry or to reflect is a good idea.. i seriously dunno

i juz want someone to understand me, to noe the tears behind my smiles, to look deep into my emotions and to care.. perhap i asked for too much.. am i??

well.. too much of the bad stuff.. lets talk abt the GOOd ones instead! humm.. i met up wit my primary sch bestfriend yesterdae! she hor.. n her frens huh.. trick me lo.. haha.. her hp low batt mahz, she ask her fren to call me n the fren impersonate her.. call me AH XUAN some more.. no one calls me tat lo.. except fer fen.. den hor... i so stupid, somemore tok to her as if she is fen.. lol.. i tink fen matures alot n i tink she is the BEST ger fren i ever had. she so nice and innocent tat all u wan is to protect her! n in a way she is so vulnerable, she cannot sae no to anyone.. if u force her, she will burst into tears. i rem the good old times in sch.. where we used to write letters everydae to each other. so SWEEt rite? den she will knit somethin exqusiten delicate fer mE! i would be so over the moon.. hahax.. if im a guy huh, i will die die go after her!

i miss 915!! i miss the sr days where we skip lesson.. kena catch for late coming and hair dye colour.. n bluffing the teacher tat we nv bring tutorials.. hahaz.. n the ultimate, NAPPing in lectures.. oh.. let me introdue this 915 ppl.. the history or rather pioneers of this gang of fren started with 4 ppl, me, ren cui, joanna n gillian.. haha.. me the youngest in there la.. den we recuited a "jie MEI' , turn out to be a guy though named shawn,.. haha.. y i suddenly tok abt them.. is becoz i MIss them and also, they asked me out todae, shawn treat.. but too bad, i was involve in duty at jae todae..

anyway, tats all fer todae.. im going fer an interview tml, haf to find $$ to support myself,.. sch fees cumin le.. wish me luck!

+ [CyNz] remember agains + 6:19 AM