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Sunday, February 27, 2005
went shopping with prem todae.. was so happy to c her.. we exchange alot of gossip n updates.. we had a perfectly fine noon until we came to Giodano..
no, we did not quarrel la.. but she lost her wallet.. kinda sad lo.. fell so sorri fer her.. went wit her to somerset to make police report.. drag until 10 sumthin lo..
it was not such a good dae after all.. but i do hope she will find her wallet though.
humm..
sometimes i dun quite nunderstand ppl.. the things they said and the things the did totally oppose.. i dunnoee.. i figured out i cant trust words anymore.. it is so true tat action speaks louder den words.. n the thing wit ppl nowadaes is tat they take promises lightly..
tml sch start again.. sian.. i noe i must buck up soon.. been down in the dumps lately.. humm.. the duty slot fer jae was mixed up.. my name isnt in it.. sob..
there was once a ger whu lived in a veri protected world.. den one dae, all the shields and protection she had juz crumpled away.. so rapidly tat she didnt evern c it cumin.. she was in shocked.. the ones she loves, the things she cherish and the life she used to noe vanish.. she felt so so alone n abandoned.. things didnt get better though.. her studies was affected.. she no longer became sure of herself, her existence in this world..
'maybe it is a mistake? a nightmare? or some prank?" she thought, she indulge herself in the unrealistic world where all the sorrows, pain and heartaches were juz bubbles waiting to be burst.. she laid herself onto needles and prick.. she was so heartbroken she no longer fell.. she bled.. n her blood flows in a straight line.. she didnt die of coz, she was juz hurtin herself, to make it seem like she is alive, since she can no longer feel emotionly, at least physical pain is a comfort.
haha.. fee like writin stories..
to be continued.. CYNTHIA the great author.. huh.. ilike the sound of it..
+ [CyNz] remember agains + 9:04 AM
Friday, February 25, 2005
sometimes i wonder how many times God must make us fall n get up again.. n sometimes i wonder if the intention of the Mighty one is to let us get up.
todae v suai.. haha.. i skip klass fer 'O' level sch leaver counsellin.. but the parents nv cum lo.. yesterdae i force my sis to bring hm laptop so i can find extra informaation de.. so wasted..
ms angelvin sae i speak chinese too much! huge impact lo.. coz i noe i dun.. coz i noe i try to converse in english to my klassmates, frenz, club members.. hao da de da ji wor.. haha..
todae i tink i offend my boss.. i go to work but i nv put my heart in them.. even had a conflict with my client.. i dun tink i am indispensable anymore coz boss hire new ger le.. i shub find another job.. hai~
went out to shop with sis todae.. saw a jeans i relli like.. tryin to psycho my sis to buy it 4 me.. wahaha.. i tink im halfway crazy le.. sometimes i tink i tok to myself.. cannot like tat la... haha
sundae meetin up with prem! yay.. luv her.. bez fren 4eva
+ [CyNz] remember agains + 6:39 AM
Monday, February 21, 2005
ahh.. lips bery dry.. eat too much steamboat liaox.. must go n buy lip balm.. hai.. but no time lo.. good news though.. my mum is recovering.. might not haf the operation after all coz her eye swell is not so serious le.. hahax.. thanks to many fren fer concern though.. especially premma! haha.. she relli got give me moral support lo.. hehe.. meetin her this fri! yay
ermz, things in sch is gettin boring lo.. haha.. i keep dozing off in lesson.. nv learn anythin la.. n hor, tml is my main comm interview.. lots of luck to me k? lol.. kinda scared.. haf to face ms angelvin again..
i tink i am recoverin too.. meanin im climbin up again after the "fall".. however.. maybe not as good n new as b4..
my lao ban ahzz.. he du lan wit me le.. go n hire another telemarketer.. jialat.. though he haven fired me yet la.. but hor.. think v soon le.. haiya.. haf to find job le..
okie la.. got to go fer lesson le.. lol.z.. later still got aerobics... after tat haf to go visit mum.. that's all! good day!
+ [CyNz] remember agains + 7:44 PM
Sunday, February 20, 2005
growin fat liaox.. hahax..
yesterdae eat steamboat, todae eat steamboat n tml also.. sianzz... ahah
yesterdae was the poly 50 ppl go fer marina steambaot.. 18 of us sia, occupy 4 tables..
humm, whu got go ahz.. penny, winnie, hui xian, hui ying, diana, wei li, kevin, zhen long, fu cai, edison, gerald, kang min, terence, alex yr 2, bernard, said, daniel, senior lilian n jean, jasper n his gf.. ahh.. more den 18...
okok lo.. quite fun also, after tat we go play pool.. haha.. won fu cai n edison.. they go in black ball la.. lost to bernard though.. heng ahz.. play til quite late.. can still catch last train
todae ahz.. now in jian ji hse, they play mahjong.. i dun wanna play le.. i keep winnin de.. sian.. lol.. nv gamble la.. later eat steam boat.. abit hungry le wor.. hee.. this mornin til now onli eat curry puff..
mom condition not improving.,.. i feel so selfish.. but i relli cannot bring myself to be by her side always.. look at her i heart pain.. the staff in tts not good de lo.. ahh.. so frustrated at them.. they like heck care abt my mom.. being tryin to convince my mom to change to b ward.. but she dun wan.. sae her company will pay if she is in c ward.. not true lo.. her company will pay if she at b ward too lo... y lao ren jia so stubborn de??
n my father.. qiao cui heng dou.. wat can i do?? now i thinkin abt quittin sch.... i mean, papa n mama try so hard to save is becoz of me the burden.. sis gettin married le.. kor kor going 29 lle lo.. left onli me they cannot fang xin.. if i dun study.. if i work.. maybe i can support myself.. they dun haf to pay fer me sch fees n all le rite?? dunnoe.. i feel so selfish.. wat am i??
i tot i could get up after the fall... y must it happen again??
+ [CyNz] remember agains + 1:49 AM
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
so much to do..
i tink i meddle into things too much at times... feelin stress.. y does everyone ask me things which i DUNNO how to answer.. i dun like the pressure given to me, especially when i am not in charge... feeling abit annoyed lo..
my papa go temple n chui qian fer me.. it is a good one, thank God.. but i fear fer my mom..
yesterdae nitez she sae her eye v pain... that relli strikes, maybe i fear too much.. but my grandma did pass away after a phone call saying her eye hurts..
y izzit like this?? my mom still on the way to recovery.. i dun wan anythin to go back again.. it hurt me to c how vulnerable n small she is..
no longer i feel the protection she used to give me.. but i feel the need to protect her instead..
humm.. i miss my spp frenz.. long nv c them le..
still abit depress these days..
i shouldn't feel this way.. but i cannot help it.. life has been so grey..
fell guilty fer sumthings i nv explain properly to the other party.. i hate to do this but i dun haf the courage to confront it.. i juz hope time will heal everythin.. n i wan to leave no scar.
+ [CyNz] remember agains + 6:34 PM
Monday, February 14, 2005
todae went to sch.. late as usual.. lol
the bus driver hor, he tink he drivin tortoise car izzit.. ppl walk also faster den the bus lo.. somemore got jam.. arrghh..
todae gems teacher change liaoz.. hai, if i had known, i skip todae lesson, the anatomy of the eye, last time in sec sch bio got learn lo..
humm, tml i will noe my blood test result le.. the med the doc prescibe me sux, make my stomach churn n uncomfortable. i tink i feelin weaker takein thoes med.. somemore so ex..
fell asleep twice todae in klass todae..
happy v dae
i go off liaaoz. tata
+ [CyNz] remember agains + 12:19 AM
Saturday, February 12, 2005
humm, juz went to eat breakfast cum lunch wit sis, sis bf n papa. wahz.. full sia..
later i going library liaoz, need a head start on homework, i lazy pig hor, eat n slp. nv exercise, nv study. so todae no excuse le, mUST study,
yesterdae went river ang bao wit mama n sis, wahz, there v happenin sia. so much to c, got cai shen ahz, rooster ahz, n china traditional goods la. i saw someone, my sec sch fren, she sellin ren shen worZ, can u believe it, but aiya, i forget her name liaoz, np de, tink n shi sumthin. memory v bad ahz me. she look super mature lo. like some wu shu ppl. lol
as usual, i tink im fallin down down n down. i need to get up some how. im lying to myself n ppl whu cares abt me. sis dream tat i died. i tink i might too.. dunno y.. i tink somehow, these days, my luck not good, so is my karma. wat should i do?
God, i need u.
i miss the ppl i dun c often. suddenly i feel like my world is crashin. n seeing then has become a need for mr, not juz a desire. if i relli died, i wanna all my dream fufilled.
+ [CyNz] remember agains + 8:57 PM
Friday, February 11, 2005
*clap clap
this is cynthia. i haf sort of abandon my last blog. coz not i create de.
this blog is me me me! lol
todae i went to watch CONSTANTINE! haha.. with hui xian, thiam hock n alex. yup, the show is awesome, got to c my fav movie star, the guy frm matrix!btw, he look damn good in a suit, humm, guys shub all dress like tat, this shub be made a law! lol
den hui ying n diana join u. we went to hui xian hse. ahh.. i jealous of her bedroom, n can u believe it, she got HELLO kitty phone!! sob sob.
haha, her parents v nice ppl..like them lots. i keep bullyin hui xian when playin bluff though.. lol
at night, i went to meet my cat, jia hui, she so cute. haha
i saw jun ni! my perfect sec sch fren. miss her like crazy. she prettier le wor
miss my bezfren premma, she like ferget ,me liaoz.. hai~~
nvm, tml i must start stuyin le, sch startin soon, sun wanna be the last in klass.. lol
+ [CyNz] remember agains + 7:37 AM
